It’s officially autumn, and I’ve been ready for it for a long time. It’s my favorite time of the year. I also love winter, but there’s just something about autumn. The colors, the smells, the holidays.
I’ve been quiet lately, and haven’t been updating as much. I have my reasons, though.
I’ve been having health issues for a while now. I noticed my fitness level dropping. For a while, I had worked up to running 40 minutes straight, and then the next week I could barely run even 3 minutes. I never did manage to work back up to that. I can easily walk fast for a long time and walked a strong 3 or 4 miles every day. Suddenly, I was struggling with even that.
I had various pain, severe exhaustion, and weakness… it was time to find out what was going on.
Some autoimmune issues run in my family, so I mentioned it to my family doctor at my physical this past spring. They ran blood tests, and they all came back as normal (except I was deficient in Vitamin D). They put me on a high dosage of Vitamin D, and told me to go see a rheumatologist.
My labs from the rheumatologist have been coming back negative, and my D level is back up again (yay!).
My family doctor and rheumatologist think I have Fibromyalgia.
Not feeling your normal self is no fun
There are times I’m so exhausted and just want to sleep, but can never seem to catch up. Even tapping on my iPhone’s screen hurts, and sometimes even the gentlest touch on my skin feels like sandpaper or worse. I have to be careful not to push myself too hard and do things like I’m used to doing, especially exercise. Chores and sewing can really wipe me out, and if I manage to bang my knee into something (I can be a tad clumsy) or stab a finger with a pin? I get even worse.
Just taking it easy
So I’ve learned not to set too many goals, or at least not to kick myself too hard if I don’t make it (especially with a complicated sewing project that, really, isn’t the end of the world if I don’t finish in time).
I treat myself to things that soothe me, at least mentally. I’ve not really found much that helps the physical pain and exhaustion (I have decided for now, not to take any medications).
Lots of “spa” days for me now!
A few months ago, we bought a Keurig and we love it. We’re hooked on the coffees — it’s fun to try different flavors, and if I’m in the mood for one type and my husband isn’t, we can just make what we want. I do need to cut back, but sometimes it’s those little things in life that make the difference. 😉
I’ve also been burning lots of incense. I went through the vanilla and cinnamon scents quickly. I can’t wait to get more of those.
I also have been going through bath salts like crazy. Central Market has grapefruit and peppermint bath salts and I love to mix the two. Light some candles, and turn on the water fountain, and I can trick myself into relaxing for a little while, at least.
I’ll probably never be my normal self again, but at least I can try to focus on those things I really enjoy. I may be even slower about finishing sewing projects and other things that really aren’t that important compared to others, but I’ll get to them when I can.
Focus on those important things
I wasn’t going to post about this, but it has made me stop and enjoy those little things more often. I definitely want to push myself to enjoy hobbies and set goals like that, but I also want to treat myself to a little relaxing “me” time a lot more often as well.
And if that means enjoying one more pumpkin-flavored coffee, or burning a few more sticks of incense that make me think of autumn and cozy holidays… well, I can’t think of a better way to relax.